Collecting Thoughts

November 27, 2010

This thing Everyone calls "LOVE" & A Break Up.

So what is "Love"? Have you ever tried to define this word or have you just gone along with the definition from the dictionary? Maybe it has different meanings from one situation to another. Maybe there's no definition. It's just an emotion or maybe just a thought. What I believe to be true of this thing everyone calls "Love" is that it's powerful enough to change a person. It may bring a person closer to another or further away. Some say it's evil. No matter how beautiful it may be or how much sugar people use to coat it, someone's getting hurt in the end. Whether it's the person who's in "Love" or an outside person looking in on this thing call "Love". I'm afraid of such existence.



Break Ups. Definitely one of the most painful stages that a human will encounter numerous times in their lives. Endless tears fall after the departure. Promises that were made when you two were together were quickly broken at that moment when the other decides to walk away from you. You sit & reminisce while you let every tear run down your cheeks. Then you promise yourself you won't allow such a person like that to enter your life ever again only to go through the same process again and again and again. Why do we continue to build relationships if all of them ends the same way: screams, tears, bruises, scars & disappointment? Maybe because we believe that one person will be different and actually stay with us till death seperates us. Nothing's wrong with believing such things but don't be so foolish. If that person don't appreciate you by now, they will never ever appreciate you. But what else can we do? We're only human afterall. You wake up everyday & go on with your daily activities. Nothing's changed except for the late phone calls & constant empty apologies. That's what a break up is. Think about it.

November 13, 2010

Introduction

It's been awhile since I've been on here. I first started using this site for my English class but now I'm just using it to clear my thoughts. I haven't introduced myself, have I?

Hi! Nice to meet you. I'm Der. It's pronounce exactly as it's spelled. Not "Deer" or "Door". Just "Der". I'm just your average teenager trying to understand life as well as working hard to make ends meet. I understand that life is not easy and it's not suppose to be. I'm still trying to get the hang of appreciating life as it is. Follow me as we go through this life together :) From my experiences and experiences from others close to me. Together, we can make this life worth living :)

September 18, 2009

Tribute: Park Jaebeom, The "Leadja"



Park Jaebeom was the leader of K-Pop boy band 2PM but because of some messages he sent on Myspace 4 years ago (while he was a trainee under JYP Entertainment) regarding how much he hated Korea & that Korean people are gay, he left the group & returned to Seattle, WA on September 8, 2009. He gave a public apology saying that it was hard for him to adapt to a new environment since he spent his whole life in the U.S. JYP announced that Jay would be staying with the group, leaving fans relieved, only to have the moment shortened by a guilt ridden Jay who announced he would be leaving the group to take responsibility as the leader and to no longer put the group through more trouble.

This really broke my heart because I love Jaebeom & 2PM so much. Hearing & actually seeing youtube fan cams of him at the airport leaving Korea was heartbreaking. You watch how much fans cried for him yelling out "Don't Go, Don't Go!" & seeing him leave anyways is just incredibly sad. I hope Jaebeom comes back as a stronger person. All I gotta say is, 2PM will never be the same again :(